I Hate this disease...

I hate this disease in the way it makes me feel...I know I probably will be posting this topic again...
I hate that one day I will not be able to take care of myself...
I hate that I will one day be a burden to my family...
.I hate that one day someone will have to take care of me
I hate that one day my garden will be nothing but weeds( I love my gardens)
I hate this disease is robbing me of my family
I hate this disease is going leave us financial insecure( not that we were really secure anyway)
I hate that my husband really don't know what is going on and don't want to know
I hate that I will be put in a Nursing home ( my husband has already said he wouldn't come and visit me he has to work)
I hate that one day soon I will have to ask for help
I hate that one day soon I will no longer be able to drive
I hate that sometimes I question about things....( like for instance how do I get back home when I take a walk down the road)( What did I plant?, Where am I, How old am I)

Well I think that is enough hates right now....