Neuro visit....

Well, I have been thinking at least in my bad Brain I have been thinking maybe that's there a moderate MCI ( Mild neurocognitive disorder)...that maybe I don't have just mild...anymore so
last week I contacted, or maybe it was three or four days ago, who knows anywho....I contacted my neurologist ...and they didn't have any openings until the end of December.....then I contacted t hem again a couple of days ago and I was able to get in, yay....as I wanted another neuropysch test done....
or as in my brain is thinking another neurocognitive test...done....so I told him what has been going,...asked if any stress, hmmm of course my oldest moved back in, our water well thinking about going out ( might need to pull the well pump , in which we cant afford), ....I feel as if, im easily agitated.....and I would like another test done, since according to my records, I haven't had one done in about 2 years....( that's when I was diagnosed with the MCI......) ,so no test, but he put me on two meds( Chlorpromazine and pack of Methyl prednisone...) plus speech eval and then we will go from there...grrrrr....asked if I had speech therapy before and if it helped, it did help alittle, but I want another neurocognitive test done...grrrr ...just praise my daughter, drink plenty of fluids, eats a well balanced meal, exercise , and come back if symptoms are worse.......he also asked if I wanted another med as well, and of course I said no....so now waiting for the speech eval.....

  added note, I feel like im slipping away....wrong word comes out, a lot, see things that look like other things and then I look again and it is just a tree stump , in my brain I hear the word , I think im saying a word, but the wrong word comes out...forgotten what things are called...and I know , I feel my memory slipping away...

well that's it s for now

slipping away

 

I feel today or rather the days are just slipping away...

away from my memory

memories slipping away

slowly going away

the faces of family,

the familiar places...

I hate this disease

I cant say this enough

Why???

 

Today is a bad day for me....maybe its the stress from this past week, maybe

just too much stress from this week

maybe the weather( dreary rainy, cold day)

I really don't know

but I didn't feel very good this morning..

.I didn't recognize

my surrounds, the road

didn't know for sure If I was headed the right way

in which I needed to go

 

Why?

 

Because maybe this disease is getting

the best of me

maybe its the weather

maybe its just too much stress

 

well enough of this for now

I gotta go

maybe one day

I will know .