When I first started having issues ...my hubby stated he couldn't handle me having Alzheimer's...that is one thing he cant handle......We was thinking Parkinson's...MS...not Alzheimer's...
I did get a copy of my MRI scans and then went and googled MS MRI scans...mine looked nothing like theirs...then the Diagnosis Small Vessel disease was found out.....I googled it...nothing but dementia came up on my search.....I then googled images of small vessel disease MRI scans....just what my scans looked like...it cant be dementia...I felt...no...I wanted no...then after my last visit to the doctor...she confirmed what I had suspected...( I am a LPN)...
I sorta know what is going to take place, but not really...I know the last stages......not the early stages...My Paternal Grandmother had Alzheimer's...I know it is heredity.
I am scared of not knowing my children , my husband...I have apologized in advance., before I knew...but deep down I kinda knew....
I am scared that I wont get to see and realize my both daughters getting married...having babies..being a grandmother...I am scared of not being there for them when they need me...my daughters are 18 and 14......Everytime I try and talk to my husband ...he don't want to hear any of it...how I feel...I seriously think he has health issues as well. He has a lot of headaches...I know he has stress....I am scared for him as well...Now I am crying ...tears on the edge of my eyes...
Why oh why...?We are not ones to question, I must remember this...
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