hanging on by a thread..

    I have felt for the last month that I have been hanging on by a thread...let me explain alittle bit and catch ya up of things here...I have small vessel disease of the brain and mild neurocognitive disorder...both can lead to dementia eventually...vascular dementia...So I had a two hour test a few weeks back( Memory-cognitive test ), just got results back....The results were mainly below average on most things...the doctor diagnosed me with Mild Vascular neurocognitive disorder...Some things on the test I was moderate impairments ( I'm not going into what I was moderate on)….
   Now the hanging on by a thread point...everyone has been told to stay home unless ya need something essential....needless to say since my hubby is an essential worker I have been mostly complying..( expect for doctor appointments)...now for the feelings...yes most day this doesn't effect me, but then those days I feel like any minute I could be go into loosing my mind...loosing who I am...See socializing helps people like me...with this virus and orders to stay home...I'm not able to socializie as I used to...I used to go to town at least three days a week, visit with people while going shopping, looking at things being around people ...but with this virus, can't do that now...I'm in my own little world, I'm sure I'm not the only one with feelings like this...
  People diagnosed with mild neurocognitive disorder are suppose to socialize to help them with memory/cognitive issues..but with the virus, most people with this have not gone anywhere to socialize...We don't talk to very many people at least those of us that live in the rural area ( like me).
Those of us in the rural socialize by going to church, going shopping, eating in restaurants, etc. as neighbors aren't close and really don't care I feel like...( they have their own things or are bad neighbors-that complain and aren't helpful)
   These are just a few of my feelings, I might ,might do a vlog on this , still haven't decided about this...I want to do a vlog but really don't want it out there, but I guess posting this blog it's out there..
Well , I guess that's it for now
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